Yes I really am that old. Perhaps my youthful good looks have stopped me from acting my age, by society’s standards at least. My belief is it doesn’t matter how you live as long as you’re happy. I am just coming out of the worst few months of my life and am inviting you to join me on my journey back from square one. Through some silly actions coupled with outside forces I lost friends, the love of my life, good job opportunities and the best part of myself. Some may argue that those friends/lovers that do not stick around during the hard times may not have been true. Perhaps they are right. If people don’t want to be in my life that’s their choice and their loss. Too many people let pride get in their way and there is only so much fighting you can do. The only option is to move on. Deep down I know my love was true. Nevertheless it takes a backseat as he is not in my present and I am to focus my best efforts on myself for the time being. Today is the first day of the rest of my life.
The last time I lost the most important man in my life, my father, I went into a downward spiral of severe alcohol abuse and complete irresponsibility. I am a very emotional person who is very sensitive to her surroundings and often I saw this to be a bad thing. However it is who I am, I have had a great life thus far. The highs have been fantastic and the lows devastating because of the way I am but I wouldn’t change it for the world. I no longer intend to numb the feelings and from now on will celebrate who I am every single day.
Everyday is a blessing and an adventure and my aim is to make the most of the short life that we have!